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My name is Jenn.

I'm 28 years old.

Residing in Virginia.

Lesbian.

Taken.

Awkward.

Sweet.

Caring.

Silly.

Empathetic.

Shy at times.

Genuine.

I am true to the Zodiac sign, Cancer
I'm always here if you need someone to talk too!My Face

I’m on repeat everyday.
Work.home
One?two? Three beers? Glass of Malibu and orange juice? Whatever takes the pain away.
Call my boys, listen to their sweet voices and laughter.
Another goodbye and sweet dreams yet I cannot kiss them on their foreheads or tuck them in. Turn away the monsters that they believe are hidden under their beds or in their closet.
Shower. Crawl into bed. try and get lost in a tv show. Pray to whoever is watching over me that I can a least dream of my kids so that I can at least say I see them on a daily basis. So in some way I can wrap my arms around them, feel their warmth.
Pray for strength to somehow get through this.
Pray that they can one day understand why mommy can’t be there in person right now.
Fall asleep.
Wake up before the sun comes up.
Get ready for work, kiss my love goodbye and wish that I would just stay curled up next to her.
Off to work. Spend the day smiling and laughing and help people to have good days. Counting the minutes to the end of my shift.

My days are on repeat. I just want this time to speed up yet in the same breath, do not. I want to be with my kids and they still be tiny. I know this time next year my boys will no longer be toddlers/1st graders. I will have a kindergartner and a 2nd grader. If you’re not a parent you don’t understand what it feels like to miss a year and half of your child’s life. I feel like their changing so much I don’t even know anything about them anymore. I feel so far from them. I hate this.

I need a diet plan that isn’t expensive but offers energy. I am broke but work 11-12 hour shifts. I don’t get a lot of sleep. I’m working on that and I’m cutting sodas out (diet and regular) but I’m not sure if I’m ready to cut alcohol out. Right now it’s a crutch to help me through the hard nights. (This isn’t an everyday thing though. Probably twice a week?) anyone have any tips? My past would recommend very little food and lots of water and exercise but I need to try and figure out a little bit healthier way to do this since in the past I wasn’t working long hours like I am now! :/


REBLOG AND SEE IF YOU GET A COLOR.
PURPLE: I don’t talk to you but I really love your blog.
YELLOW: I wish we were friends in real life.
RED: I love you with a burning passion.
GREY: I wish we’d talk more.
TURQUOISE: I would hug you if we met
PINK: I love your blog it’s one of my favourites
TEAL: We have a lot in common.
BLUE: You are my tumblr crush.
ORANGE: I don’t like your blog.
WHITE: MARRY ME PLEASE.
GREEN: I think you’re cute.
CORAL: I think you’re beautiful
BLACK: I would date you.
BROWN: I don’t like you.

REBLOG AND SEE IF YOU GET A COLOR.

PURPLEI don’t talk to you but I really love your blog.

YELLOWI wish we were friends in real life.

REDI love you with a burning passion.

GREYI wish we’d talk more.

TURQUOISE: I would hug you if we met

PINKI love your blog it’s one of my favourites

TEALWe have a lot in common.

BLUEYou are my tumblr crush.

ORANGEI don’t like your blog.

WHITEMARRY ME PLEASE.

GREENI think you’re cute.

CORAL: I think you’re beautiful

BLACKI would date you.

BROWNI don’t like you.

I’m struggling with a lot of anger. I’m not sure how to deal. I just know I hate being so angry. I have made mistakes, yet no one cares to notice how hard I’ve worked to fix things. I miss my kids.

seedy:

"she’s just playing hard to get" 

have u ever considered that maybe she just isnt interested ???¿¿¿

9/02/2014



I’m on repeat everyday.
Work.home
One?two? Three beers? Glass of Malibu and orange juice? Whatever takes the pain away.
Call my boys, listen to their sweet voices and laughter.
Another goodbye and sweet dreams yet I cannot kiss them on their foreheads or tuck them in. Turn away the monsters that they believe are hidden under their beds or in their closet.
Shower. Crawl into bed. try and get lost in a tv show. Pray to whoever is watching over me that I can a least dream of my kids so that I can at least say I see them on a daily basis. So in some way I can wrap my arms around them, feel their warmth.
Pray for strength to somehow get through this.
Pray that they can one day understand why mommy can’t be there in person right now.
Fall asleep.
Wake up before the sun comes up.
Get ready for work, kiss my love goodbye and wish that I would just stay curled up next to her.
Off to work. Spend the day smiling and laughing and help people to have good days. Counting the minutes to the end of my shift.

My days are on repeat. I just want this time to speed up yet in the same breath, do not. I want to be with my kids and they still be tiny. I know this time next year my boys will no longer be toddlers/1st graders. I will have a kindergartner and a 2nd grader. If you’re not a parent you don’t understand what it feels like to miss a year and half of your child’s life. I feel like their changing so much I don’t even know anything about them anymore. I feel so far from them. I hate this.

9/01/2014



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I need a diet plan that isn’t expensive but offers energy. I am broke but work 11-12 hour shifts. I don’t get a lot of sleep. I’m working on that and I’m cutting sodas out (diet and regular) but I’m not sure if I’m ready to cut alcohol out. Right now it’s a crutch to help me through the hard nights. (This isn’t an everyday thing though. Probably twice a week?) anyone have any tips? My past would recommend very little food and lots of water and exercise but I need to try and figure out a little bit healthier way to do this since in the past I wasn’t working long hours like I am now! :/

8/31/2014




REBLOG AND SEE IF YOU GET A COLOR.
PURPLE: I don’t talk to you but I really love your blog.
YELLOW: I wish we were friends in real life.
RED: I love you with a burning passion.
GREY: I wish we’d talk more.
TURQUOISE: I would hug you if we met
PINK: I love your blog it’s one of my favourites
TEAL: We have a lot in common.
BLUE: You are my tumblr crush.
ORANGE: I don’t like your blog.
WHITE: MARRY ME PLEASE.
GREEN: I think you’re cute.
CORAL: I think you’re beautiful
BLACK: I would date you.
BROWN: I don’t like you.

REBLOG AND SEE IF YOU GET A COLOR.

PURPLEI don’t talk to you but I really love your blog.

YELLOWI wish we were friends in real life.

REDI love you with a burning passion.

GREYI wish we’d talk more.

TURQUOISE: I would hug you if we met

PINKI love your blog it’s one of my favourites

TEALWe have a lot in common.

BLUEYou are my tumblr crush.

ORANGEI don’t like your blog.

WHITEMARRY ME PLEASE.

GREENI think you’re cute.

CORAL: I think you’re beautiful

BLACKI would date you.

BROWNI don’t like you.

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I’m struggling with a lot of anger. I’m not sure how to deal. I just know I hate being so angry. I have made mistakes, yet no one cares to notice how hard I’ve worked to fix things. I miss my kids.

8/28/2014



seedy:

"she’s just playing hard to get" 

have u ever considered that maybe she just isnt interested ???¿¿¿

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